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L1-L5 laminectomy 10/2021. post op infection, back in hospital for 4 days 11/2021. 

4+ months out i'm experiencing neuropathy down both legs into feet and toes. sharp pain left hip occasionally. achy lower back all the time. neurosurgeon says, and he says the same thing for my neck, call him when i can't take the pain anymore. doing anything preemptive surgically is too marginal and risky. 

it's march and i'm still stugglin gettin back into gear. activity aggravates my pain. i'm limited. hi my name is vince and i'm disabled. 

still getting headaches and experiencing neuropathy in right face, neck, shoulder, arm, hand, and fingers. 

working on paper and donated polystyrene. penicls, markers, water color crayons, and acrylic paints. it's going slow. 

oh, and occasionally my knee goes out. hasnt happen in long time. knee went out first week of march. knee is back in brace. brace for 24-72 hrs in the past has been enough for my knee to feel better. it's my left knee. pain anterior side of knee between knee cap and tibia. sharp extreme pain. when straightening leg out.

5/2018 hemamilaminectomy and discectomy surgery C7-T1.

2019 neurosurgeon said i have failed surgery syndrome

the condensed, densed, version:

i havperipheral neuropathy with sensory and motor nerve damage. my right arm/hand is in partial paralysis. i get headaches from my incision area. totally dibilitating headaches that last 12-24 hours.

furthermore i have multipule lumbar and sacral issues. both legs get nerve pain shooting through my pelvis bone and down thigh. legs and feet, buzzing most of the time. L3, L4, and L5 are more sponge than bone. my lower back aches all the time. sciatic grabs as it does frequently. leg muscles cramp. toes and feet cramp. hands and fingers cramp. 

arthritis, not just on my spine. i am witnessing it grow in my hands. both hands. 

and i still have gi issues.

so my biomechanics are fubar too. 

i'm a structural mess. 

6/2021 cervical MRI and xrays. appointment with neurosurgeon. after putting off surgery for 2 years i'm going to let him cut this time! he told me 2 years ago i should have had surgery 20 years ago. 



i was born with the gift of dexterity. i didn’t color in coloring books. i drew on the inside front and back covers. 


my mom gave me the brown paper shopping bags ripped and turned inside out to draw on. i filled those with crayon, marker, and pencil drawings of things i saw on tv or other marketing. i learned to draw copying disney, warner brother’s, mad magazine, hanna barbara, comics and the beatles.


exhausting the weekly supply of shopping bags in a couple hours, my mom supplied large rolls of brown paper for me to draw on. drawing on the large paper, across the kitchen floor, was a fantastic way to practice drawing and learning to see.


teased at age 10 for being “one of those,” with a limp wrist gesture, by my big brothers friends, because the still life paintings i painted were getting a lot of attention at the local cultural center, i became a closet artist. i didn’t know what “one of those” were but i knew i didn’t want to be teased. furthermore my dad didn’t respect art. he thought it was worthless. age 11, standing in front of jasper johns’ “map” painting, at the philadelphia museum of art, smoke was coming out of my dad’s ears. he’d had it with the modern art wing. he said, “anybody can do this crap, this isn’t art.” i was thinking, no, you’re wrong dad. these things are amazing!! i remember being puzzled by his very strong emotional response.


as an art student, undergrad and grad, i continued learning about art, the history of art and art concepts, by copying. copying modern art, professors, visiting artists, and peers. anything that i assimilated or fancied or resonated with me. i was introduced and began practicing einstein’s idea of, 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration. not because of a “genius” label, but as a working process.


I am 55 years young and still learning by copying. my process hasn’t really changed. my paintings/drawings/objects come from painting/drawing/making things, the bliss of hard work and hands on research with learning as you go experimentation. i’m investigating in-coming information, spatial metaphors and technical processes. i’m reluctant to reduce the subject to what the source material or references are because that is something i want to be as wide open as possible.


"i’m only interested in fundamentally revolutionizing and transforming your entire being. there is no me and there is no you. there is just one consciousness that is ever expanding as the infinite possibility that is cascading as the singularity in the multiplicity of form." Sri Sri Sri Spankneesh Ji.


my paintings are alive with the aliveness of being alive and will help dust off your bling revealing the wholeness within.

i hurt my shoulder, my bicep tendon, on a very cold day this winter. i've been rehabbing it and doing physical therapy for 4 weeks. it's slowly improving but my bicep can not handle a load. i can not do my other job. the one with a paycheck.

as an artist, my priorty has always been to make things. well, i'm taking much of this time to build this website. my health limitations are providing the time and space i need to do this.

thanks for looking.

i've been checking out philip guston lately.

listening to Porcupine Tree and Joe Jackson's new record.

walking in the woods with the dog and breathing.